Getting Ready To Make A Baby

Yeah, I said it. I am getting my body ready to make a baby. What does that entail exactly? Well for starters, I need to get my weight in a healthy range so my body is healthy enough to conceive and grow a child. When talking about weight, there are many factors: height, gender, muscle mass, etc. However, doctors' offices use the BMI scale, so I will be using this system as a guideline for weight loss.

I currently weigh 222.7 pounds, which means at 5'1", my BMI is 42.1, WHICH IS MORBIDLY OBESE.

I decided on Monday, September, 21st, when I weighed in at 227 pounds, that I needed to do something about my weight. A normal BMI range is 18.5-24.9, which means a healthy weight for me is between 98 to 132 pounds. Now I would never want to weigh below 100 pounds, but I would be happy at anywhere below 132. At my lowest weight ever, I was 150 pounds... so I know that is possible.

Here are three pictures of my weight loss story. My heaviest at 310, my lowest at 150, and currently around 220-230. The hardest part of gaining weight back is looking at the picture of you at your lowest weight and feeling not good enough, feeling like you failed yourself and your loved ones. It is something I never want to feel again.

I know that physically my body is able to get down to 150 pounds, but I am making smaller goals along the way so I can feel accomplished not only when I reach my final goal. I am setting my goals every ten pounds, and if I average about 2 pounds a week, I should lose about 10 pounds a month. Here are my weight loss goals.

Weight Goals
Under 220 pounds by 10/13/15
Under 210 pounds by 11/12/15
Under 200 pounds by 12/12/15
Under 190 pounds by 1/11/16
Under 180 pounds by 2/10/16
Under 170 pounds by 3/11/16
Under 160 pounds by 4/10/16
Under 150 pounds by 5/10/16
Under 140 pounds by 6/9/16
Under 130 pounds by 7/9/16
Under 120 pounds by 8/8/16

Getting in shape is not only about losing weight. It is also about becoming more fit and able to carry around the extra baby weight without getting exhausted, being able to function normally for most of the pregnancy, and becoming a better runner for myself.

I hate running, I really do. But it is good for me. It is good for weight loss. It is good for overall health. It is good for flexibility and stamina. It is good for my mental stability. It is good for me.

I have also made some fitness goals for myself for daily workouts as well as running goals that focus more on time/distance.

1. Finish the Insanity program. (Complete ALL the workouts in the given 30 days)
2. Complete the Wine and Dine Half Marathon in under 3:15:00
3. Be able to run a mile without stopping by January 1st
4. Complete the Disney World Marathon in under 7:00:00
5. Set new PRs for all of my race times by January 10, 2016
6. Complete the Princess Half Marathon in under 2:45:00
7. Complete the Tinker Bell Half Marathon in under 2:37:18
8. Be able to run a mile without stopping by January 1st

Well, that is it for today. I will check in soon about how I am doing. Just a reminder, here are my overall statistics.

Highest Weight: 310
Lowest Weight: 150
Current Weight: 222.7
Weight Lost Since September 21st: 4.3

Going, Going, Gone!

Well it has been about a year since I have posted on my blog, and I am going to be honest.... it is because I was gaining weight and not being healthy. I was eating a lot. I was eating everything. I wasn't happy. Now don't get me wrong, I was trying, but sometimes trying just doesn't work. I would start out a day eating yogurt and fruit, and end up eating 5 pieces of pizza for dinner. Losing weight and being healthy is hard.

It's. Really. Hard.

I ran the Hollywood Half Marathon this weekend, and originally, I was hoping for a PR (personal record), but after mile 4, I walked the majority of the other 9.1 miles. I was tired, I was hot, and I was not ready. A month ago, I PR'd at 3:07:57, which to some is slow. To me, that is almost an hour faster than my first half marathon on January 2, 2013. I completed the Tinker Bell Half Marathon with RunDisney in 4:01:55.

I have come a long way, but still not far enough.

I used to weigh 310 pounds, and through a number of surgeries, programs, diets, etc, I made it all the way down to 150 pounds. It was great, and I loved it, but I did not maintain it. I have officially gained back 68 of the 160 pounds I had originally lost. It is time to re-lose that 68 pounds. I woke up this morning feeling determined, feeling ready. I have my first full marathon in

47 Days, 20 hours, and 34 minutes

I am scared. Part of me knows I am not ready, and I cannot do it. But the other part is excited. The other part hopes that if I eat right and exercise well for the next 47 days, I can be ready to run my first full marathon and hopefully lose the 18 pounds I would like to lose by the marathon. Here are my goals:

May 31, 2015

Weight: 200 pounds

Distance: 26.2 miles

Time: Less Than 7 Hours

Because it is my first, I do not care about finishing fast. I really want to finish under 7 hours and finish in the upright position. For the next 47 days, I will eat right. I will exercise according to the plan my trainer has given me. I will not give up. I will not stray. I mean, it is only 47 days, right? One day at a time, I can do this. If I will it, it is no dream. Someone told me this morning,

"Every day, think as you wake up, today I am fortunate to be alive, I have a precious human life, I am not going to waste it. I am going to use all my energies to develop myself, to expand my heart out to others; to achieve enlightenment for the benefit of all beings. I am going to have kind thoughts towards others, I am not going to get angry or think badly about others. I am going to benefit others as much as I can.”

I will do just that. I will be the best person I can be. It is only up to me. Not others, but myself. Today is the day, and I am ready.