Writing For Introspection

So as some of you know, I am in a twelve step program for my food addiction. I know, it might sound crazy that someone can be addicted to food... But let me tell you, it is 100% possible. I crave it. I love it. I love the smell. I love the taste. I love the feeling of eating. I love the physical reaction I get when I eat. I love food so much, that I have created bad habits around food.

I used to do a lot of things that I am ashamed of. I used to eat out of trash cans, and I was able to eat almost anything put in front of me. It was sickening. Luckily, I found FA, and I have been in this amazing program for almost five months.

Five months is a long time to make changes. I use to be on these crazy diets, because I wanted to lose weight quickly. I would tell myself that if I lose two pounds a week or three pounds a week then I would be to a certain goal at a certain time. It was crazy talking, and it would never work. It is nearly impossible to continuously lose 3 pounds a week for 150-200 pounds. It is just not possible.

Now that I am in FA, the weight does not matter as much to me. As of now, it is more about the sanity around food that this program brings to my life. I weigh and measure my life as I do with my food, and this has made my life a lot smoother. Although getting rid of the weight is not the best thing I have received from program, it has helped and continues to be a highlight for me. Here are my numbers.

Rachel S.

Height: 5'2"

Top Weight: 310 lbs

Starting FA Weight: 202.6 lbs

October Weigh In: 161.9 lbs

Total Weight Lost: 148.1 lbs

It took five months of truly beginning to do some soul searching to realize that I want to better myself. I want to be smarter. I want to achieve goals. I want to do things I don't think I can do. Twelve step programs emphasize the importance of writing, so I am going to push myself to update my blog regularly and continue to work on my novel. Hopefully, I will gain insight into my life and gain an understanding of the person that I want to be. Thanks for reading.