I have always wanted to be happy. As someone suffering with manic depression/bipolar and being obese, it has always been hard for me to feel good inside. I might even argue that trying to make yourself happy is more difficult than losing weight, just maybe. Last night, I went to the Wellness Summit at American Jewish University, and I was introduced to my first motivational speaker during an event. Hal Elrod is a successful businessman who has a truly inspirational story. After being involved in a car accident, being pronounced dead, and told he would never walk again, Hal pushed forward. He learned not only to walk again but has run a double marathon! He also went into debt later in his life and began to experience major depression. I couldn't help but relate to Hal. His story of overcoming the impossible is the person I want to be. I need to overcome my emotional problems. I need to surpass my weight loss goals. I aim to be fit. I live to be healthy.
Hal believes in the idea of the Miracle Morning, where you wake up an extra hour early and meditate, read affirmations, exercise, write, read, and something else I can't remember right now. I bought his book last night, and I was going to try to wake up at 5am and do the miracle morning today. I did end up waking up at 5am, but I only got through some meditation and affirmations before falling back asleep. Josh (my fiancé) is visiting this weekend so I won't be doing the miracle morning this weekend. I am going to read up on it and try it starting on Tuesday. I did feel happy today, which I am not sure is dedicated to juicing or to doing part of the miracle morning.
I have been updating my weight loss with each blog. Although I can admit to myself that I am not completely happy with 3.5 pound loss in four days, I am happy with the fact that last Saturday, I weighed in at 201.5 and this morning I weighted in at 192.9. This means that I have lost 8.6 in six days. Now that's more like it. I know that this journey should be more about health than weight loss, but this juice feast is about pushing my weight loss. My goal is to weigh 135 pounds at the end of the feast. Some people think I am crazy, and others are worried about me. They shouldn't be. I am intaking enough calories, and I am drinking enough water that a normal person on a "diet" would be consuming.
Why 135 you may ask? Well the BMI chart looks like this:
Overweight = 136 pounds - 163 pounds
Normal Weight = 101 pounds - 135 pounds
Although the BMI chart is not the most accurate depiction of how much a person should weigh, 135 would put me in the "normal weight" category for the only time in my life that I can remember. Also, weighing 135 pounds would mean that I would weigh less than my fiancé and also be light enough for him to pick me up at our wedding. I am looking forward to that.
To end off this post, I am going to admit that it is so hard not to eat anything and everything. I really really want hot bbq tater tots and ranch dressing from the tater tot truck. I also really want mashed potatoes, chicken, and even salad. I am craving foods, but I keep remembering why I am doing this. I want to be healthy and live a long life. After I get down to my goal weight, I think I am going to start weight watchers to manage my weight and keep me down where I belong.
Original Starting Weight: 310 pounds | 56.7 BMI
Total Weight Lost: 117.1 pounds
Juicing Staring Weight: 196.4 pounds | 35.9 BMI
Current Weight: 192.9 pounds | 35.3 BMI
Total Weight Lost During Juicing: 3.5 pounds
Goal Weight: 135 pounds
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