Every Day Is A New Day

This is going to be cutting it close, because I started this post at 11:57PM, but I am keeping to my goal of blogging every day. Today was a lot easier than yesterday in terms of abstinence. I didn't have food cravings as much, except when my sister cooked, and the house smelled really yummy.

I prepared all of my food for the time I will be home for break today, and I pre-weighed and packaged all of my meat and vegetables into containers. They're in the freezer now, so all I have to do is heat them up, and it will be ready for me to eat.

Tomorrow today is day three, and I made it through two days of continuous abstinence. I feel good about it, and although I am still struggling and having food thoughts, I am taking it one day at a time. If you are out there in the food, hold on. It gets better. Just put down the food. It is not worth it. After eating abstinent food, candy, chips, pizza, brownies, and some other stuff on Thursday, I was still not satisfied. I still wanted something more, and I will never be able to fill that hole and that's okay. Some people call it the "G-d shaped hole" so if I lean into program more, I might get rid of, or at least make smaller, these horrible cravings.

Today is day three, and I know I can do this with the help of my higher power. I just need to take it one day at a time, and I will get through each day with grace and serenity.